Here I sit looking at my blank screen. And I think about the person I am today. I dont feel the serenity that I once did, or the love or the peace. I once again dont feel like I know myself as well as I did. But in saying all this I cant tell you why. I dont know why. Is is really something to do with being away from the Outback? Or is it because I dont spend so much time with myself? I can see my face is harder or maybe more stressed now. Im not so sure why. I mean I dont live a particularly hard life back here. I dont even drink as much as I used to. Maybe its just the freedom and spirit that I am lacking.
But I do miss that place. It now feels so distant from me that I cant believe that it ever happened. I am so proud that it did and so thankful for the opportunities that I was given.
I think it would be a great experience for anyone. The things I learnt are things that cant be taught. Its just a way of life. I do think because of it I have a different perspective on life and the (sur)real world now. And I miss the things that I never thought I would.
I just hope that one day I get to share it with someone special.
